14 Day Blogging Challenge: Day 9
“Facing the Fear”
My biggest challenge in the last year was facing the fear of my having cancer. I was looking cancer in the face. Thoughts were racing. I’d noticed bleeding. I’ve been postmenopausal for five (5) years now. I remembered being told by my mother that if I ever noticed unusual bleeding to be checked by my doctor. Now the question was, ” Doctor, what doctor?” I’d had the same doctor for many years, yet questions lurked: “Who would be my doctor now? From whom would I receive treatment? Stress, I have MS. Pain, I have chronic pain, and from more than having MS. Sometimes, to learn where the pain is originating and what to do about it, we have to realize we are more than an illness we’ve been diagnosed with. Reality check: In my life, I was facing even another.
Insurance, what insurance? Obamacare, who in our system is it who was really caring? I no longer had the insurance I’d had for many years. I was no longer working. I no longer had COBRA. I’d already applied for Disability. I had been in an appeal process. I did not yet qualify for Medicare. Medicaid, which program, the authorities that be figuring out for which I qualified?
What doctors? Where? My medical team was in need of coming together.
New travels. First stop, Family Health Center at White Plains Hospital. Second stop, the White Plains Hospital ER. Tests ordered: Blood Test, CAT Scan, Ultra Sound. Upon discharge being told to follow up with my own doctor. Informing the nurse with the discharge instructions, “After all these years of seeing a gynecology specialist, I didn’t have insurance my specialist accepted.” Thinking aloud: Really, really now, and this is the system here in the USA, in NY, in Westchester County? Third Stop: The Greenburgh Health Center – Another examination and recommendation. Fourth Stop: White Plains Hospital Radiology for the hysterosonogram which had been recommend.
All the uncertainty, the stress of the uncertainty. Anxiety, Depression you had a deeper hold on me. Time, precious time, having to take the extra steps, to getting necessary treatment. What feels like an eternity. Days, leading to weeks, and weeks leading to a few months. MY AFFIRMATION: ” I CAN OVERCOME FEAR!”
I OVERCAME THE FEAR!!! Fifth Stop: Advanced OB/GYN Associates at Westchester Medical Center.
My medical team had been brought together…
My doctors were the best!
Excellent! Knowledgeble! Understanding! Caring!
Willing to listen to me!
I had a D & C, and then a Hysterectomy!
With gratitude, I thank Dr. Tarah Pua and her team, for giving me another chance at life.
Sixth Stop: Westchester Medical Center and the Radiation Medicine Team…
When I met Dr. Chitti Moorthy, little did I know what lie ahead of me. I’d never heard of brachytherapy, a type of radiation therapy. With his expertise and guidance, and a caring staff attending to me all of whom I’m grateful to, I’d take a gulp of air, a deep breath, tell my body to relax, and meditate (which I reflect on and look at as sacred time given to me).
Seventh Stop: Home, Recovering, Moving On, and Living Life ~ with love and gratitude to my family and friends who have been with me, each of you know who you are, totally supportive and sharing your love. Now it’s time for me, with faith in G-d above, to inspire and share with others.
Is there some fear you have, or have experienced, maybe overcame, or would like to overcome? If you’d like, you are welcome to share it with me.